Bastitch

I've had some bad friendships in my life. I mean, they weren't bad but they were just, not the kind of friendship one should keep. I guess it's bad then?

Anyways, so I was going through one of those Myspace profiles and I came across one of these 'friends' of mine. I am not going to mention names. But basically, that person, okay, I am going to nickname that person Bastitch as in, Bastard + Bitch to avoid one trying to figure out what the gender of this person is. Yes, is Bastitch a female or male? Go figure.

Okay so Bastitch, let me just write this down so that I can be done with it. Fuck You! I really don't understand why untill today, every time you see me, you have something against me.

But okay, back to the story, Bastitch had not always had something against me. We've known each other for years. Me and Bastitch didn't really have much in common. I always listened to Bastitch's problem and boy did Bastitch have SOME problems. Bastitch, one could say, was a "problem child". I usually never like using that term but because Bastitch at such a young age had serious issues, deserves it.

Bastitch was never mean to me when we were kids. I mean, we'd hang out and stuff but then when I hit high school it all changed. No, its not one of those we got too cool for each other stories.

Okay okay, it is sort of. Yeah call me a bitch but I stopped hanging out with Bastitch. Why? Well, before high school, Bastitch had did one of those supposedly 'COOL' things to do if you wanted to be a rebel-teenage-angst mambo jambo BULLSHIT. At such a young age! We're not in even in high school and Bastitch thinks it is time to retaliate. I was there when Bastitch commited that LAME act and was like, "what the hell is wrong with this child?"

Anyways, what happened next was, Bastitch got the rest of the wannabes in school to commit this act too! Suddenly Bastitch had a posse of people. Oh how Bastitch felt good. Meanwhile, I just stood there with my what-the-fuck-is-this face and watched as things got worse.

Yup. Obviously, the teachers caught on with this shenannigan. And Bastitch and posse AND I were called in for some sort of talk. Intervention? I don't know. I was like, WHAT THE HELL AM I DOING HERE? The teachers told Bastitch and posse that they know what they're doing and that it is wrong and asked them to admit to their wrong doings and they will be punished less. But when they got to me they realised I did nothing of this sort of FUCKED UP act so they came up with a LAME reason that I was there because I "CURSED A LOT". I was like, WHAT THE FUCK? Haha.

Because of that, I got super mad at Bastitch. I didn't do anything BUT SWEAR A LOT and yet I had to go for some lame councelling session about doing something I didn't even do. Because of Bastitch my year before high school were not exactly pleasant. I should have been enjoying that year but NO, I didn't.

Hence the reason to change friends in high school. Look, I am a loyal friend but when it comes to doing stupid things to be cool, I really dislike. TRULY. Just be yourself Bastitch!

So when I got to high school, Bastitch of course got confused as to why I wasn't around them much but I just went about my business being friends with other people. I'll admit right now I wasn't exactly friendly in high school. But I'm generally not friendly. I'm just open. Different meaning. People say that I have this mean look on my face. Heck, someone once said that I LOOK like a bad girl. Bad girl meaning a so-called rebellious chick. That I give this look like "Been there, done that and I'll kick your ass if you mess with me" kind of thing. Bullshit. I AM INNOCENT. I mean, I was. Heh.

Anyways, back to Bastitch. Things were going fine untill one fine day I found out that my name was written in the school bathroom. It was pretty vulgar in Malay but in English it would mean (I'm about to laugh) THE DAMNED PUSSY. Haha. I am the damned pussy! Gee Bastitch, you're lucky I am the civilized DAMNED PUSSY or I would've come up with MUCH funner words like Bastitch (or worst) and wrote it in the school bathroom! Ergh.

The thing is, I never knew it was Bastitch who wrote those words untill recently. So I never had anything against Bastitch untill I was told by a reliable source like, last year. HOW FUCKED UP IS THAT? I mean, all throughout high school I thought, "Oh, Bastitch seems to be okay with the fact that I'm not hanging with them. That's good. So now I need not worry about anything." WRONG. Apparently Bastitch did hold a grudge. And still does I think. Bastitch is nice to ALL my friends but won't even acknowledge me. Everytime we see each other it's "OMG YOU''RE SO FAT NOW. WHAT HAPPENED TO YOU?" in a tone of disgust towards me. I mean, granted I HAVE PUT ON WEIGHT but YOU NEED A MIRROR. See, I didn't understand why Bastitch kept saying that to me EVERYTIME all these years. But after SO LONG I finally knew, that Bastitch did hold a grudge. That Bastitch hated me for I don't know what reason (perhaps, because I LEFT the CLAN) and decided my name deserved to be on the wall of shame along with other girls who people loved to hate. Now I know.

Maybe Bastitch is over it now. Maybe not. Maybe Bastitch will never like me. I don't know. But Bastitch, this post is for you. May you have a happy life with kids that aren't as fucked up as you.

Peace.