No.1

For those of you who don't know, I have a sitemeter that keeps track of whoever is reading my shit.

I truly appreciate the fact that even though I don't tell many people about this place, there's always someone who'd come back and see if I've updated it. :)

Anyways, this isn't really a narcissistic post. This post is for one of my readers whom I didn't even know had a blog until I went through my sitemeter.

She's a very good friend of mine. Best friend really.

She's the kind of friend who likes to keep things to herself. The emo stuff at least. But nonetheless when we catch up we do tell each other the emo stuff. Well, emo-ish lah because we're both not that emo really.

See, I'm the type who likes to combine everything.

My family knows all of my friends and I always make it a point that all of my friends (those not in the 'circle' per say) would've at least met my other friends once so that when I throw a party, everybody knows everybody.

I mean, it's easier this way because then I don't have to separate people you know?

Anyways, It was going well until awhile back. My friends got mad at this best friend of mine.

The worst part is that these people are really close to me. Like these are the people I hang most with and I can't live without. These were people in my list of greatest friends!

But the problem was she was in the list too!

So it started to become a separate affair if I were to hang with her which sucked because it made it harder for me to hang with her and to invite her to my parties or social outings.

And on top of that, she was busy too so in the end we pretty much didn't talk the most of 2007.

But I won't lie it wasn't just my friends that caused the friendship to start faltering. I had some pissed of issues with her during that time too.

But I never knew why we both didn't have the courage to confront each other.

Fortunately, we're okay now because I decided to end this bullshit and let it be out in the open.

I mean, imagine if I hadn't done that?

Anyways, the point is, after reading the things she wrote I was touched.

I had no idea I was important person in her life. These days the term best friend is so overused you don't know for sure if you really qualify to be 'a best friend'. And I take the responsibility of being a best friend seriously you know? Sounds funny but it's true. Hehe.

But it's also sad because even though I am her best friend, I hardly knew the shit she went through last year and how shitty it was at times. I still don't understand why it took me so long to finally talk to her.

I'm glad I did.

So if my other close friends can't tolerate her I don't care. She's my friend and I know who she is and if my friends are my friends they'll deal with it. I mean, I don't say anything about your best friend do I?

But whatever because she rocks my world and my list of greatest friends would not be complete without her.

Love you babes!