Fuckin' Over-Anal-lyzer

Recently I came to realize something about me. I fuckin' over-analyze all the fuckin' time.

Oh don't think I'm mad or anything. I'm just annoyed with myself. I see and read into things too much and don't chill enough. I hate letting it be just like that. I always want it to have some hidden meaning when sometimes, it just doesn't have any.

And honestly? I think it's fuckin' contradictory for me to be saying all this considering I always like to say "chill".

Oh God here I fuckin' go again. STOP IT!

What made me realize this?

Well, it probably has to do with the fact that recently, things in my life have been pretty insane. And I'm trying to find the root into everything that caused such things to happen and whether everything that had happened has changed any of my current situations.

As an over-analyzer, every single word said matters, every little gesture could mean something, every little situation that happened has its reasons beyond its reasons that it all becomes one giant pile of mess.

But then I am lucky.

Lucky to have certain people who make me realize sometimes we just need to let it be. That risks should be taken. That things could just be like that. That there's no hidden meaning and that it's just how it is.

Of course, as an Over-Anal-lyzer that's hard to believe. But because I love these people, I believe.

Thanks.