So Little Time

So many things to say so little time to pen them down.

There's something about the ends and the beginnings of a year for me.

I lose all capabilities to concentrate on anything.

This is probably cos I'm too busy reminiscing about last year and taking my time getting used to this year. And since it takes awhile for me to get used to this year hence the lackability to get things back on track.

But after yesterday I realized that time is short and must not be wasted on 'getting used to'.

We never know when we're going to say farewell to the world and hello to the afterlife.

This guy who I used to have a crush on for a little bit just passed away yesterday. The thing is, I wasn't so close to him or anything but it's just that, it was so sudden. Out of the blue. Like, eh? You're dead?

Okay, yeah that sounds so blunt. But thats how I view death. With bluntness. I mean granted I will cry for certain deaths. But you know, we just have to face it. I mean, funnily enough, death is part of life.

He was 22. I still can't believe it really.

Anyways, it just made me realize that I can't plan my life too much.

Because planning means not being able to do secondary plans that I want to do.

I guess at the end of the day the question is: what are your priorities in life?

Because evidently we can't have em' all. So I guess we just have to go with the flow, try our best to achieve what we feel is the most important to us?

So what are your goals in life with this little time we have?

A lot of philosophers say people want to be happy. But what does it mean 'to be happy'?

And loads answer 'with love'. That at the end of the day, everyone just wants to feel loved whether self-love or loved by someone else.

My question is : why love? why does love give this happiness to people?

And to think I had that photo of me completely anti-love a couple of years ago.

Haha. Damn, I sure know how to make a statement.

Well I still love me (which is the most important next to God) but loathe loving others?

Because I end up caring too much?

Sigh.

This photo definitely still applies.