Autopilot Mode

Have you ever woken up in the morning with that feeling of blah-ness like you can't be arsed to do anything especially go to work?

On some days I feel like the guy Adam Sandler played in the movie Click when he went through his years on Autopilot mode you know? It's like people talk and I'm like ".....". I'd have this expressionless look and if I do have to say something the standard answer would be : Yeah. okay.

It's like I have no opinion nor do I give a fuck about the situation and that I'm in my own little world.

Do you know what I mean?

It's as though I'm so oblivious to the everything around me. It's like I practice the saying "I don't give a fuck".

Who came up with that sentence anyway? Like, why do we say we don't care when technically to some extent at perhaps a different level, we do?

But honestly? I don't give a fuck. heh.

I hate doing that though. Makes me feel like I don't care about things. I know this is just a random rant about nothing but seriously I do care about what I am writing about. Because my head is just racing with all this shit and I don't have anywhere to put it but here. It's like word vomit.

But I guess this is what happens when you have to listen to too many things in one go when all you want to do is focus on one thing and one thing only : yourself.

That's self-centered isn't it?

It's funny, I should be called (among many other names) Ms. Contradicting Naz.

Ignore this post.

I am on Autopilot as I type this.